You always think you deserve the worst because that’s how you see yourself every morning. You wake up, walk to the mirror and all you can see how much hate you have for yourself. People talk and they talk about you and they notice that this past year, you’ve been different. Your high school friends wonder what happened to that happy girl you once were. You just have this facade when you’re at home looking fine and optimistic.
You always think you’re an utter failure and you have this perception that you can’t achieve anything. You can’t even make your parents proud of you. You wonder what you did to deserve all the shit and how ungrateful people can be. You’re always hard on yourself and you think so low of yourself. So now, you just want to leave ; move away.