“The polaroid of you and I slipped out my purse. I completely forgotten that it was there. I picked it up and I smiled at it. There was no longer that bitterness in me.

I remember driving pass the spot where you once planted a kiss on my forehead. It was the night where you were so afraid to love me but you knew still said it anyways because all you wanted to do then was to love me. I remember how we sang our favorite song in public even though we both know we’re horrible singers. I remember our fights and the first time you cried in front of me. You told me you’ve never cried in front of anyone before but you did when you realized you were about to lose me. I remember holding you in my arms while you cried and begged me to stay. I stayed with you and I loved you more than I’ve loved any other person in my life. I remember giving you my heart. I still remember that night when you told me over the phone where you no longer wanted me. I tried to beg for you to stay but you said no.

I destroyed myself in loving you ; by giving all of my fragile heart to you. I fell apart. I remember the night where I stood in front of the mirror and I really couldn’t recognize the broken soul staring back at me. That horrible night that I was so afraid of falling asleep. It was that night my breaths were like as if I was gasping for air. I began wondering what’s wrong with me that I keep getting my heart broken. I remember how hard it was telling myself not to break down in public. I remember running to my car and losing all composure. It was as if my heart was so empty. The multiple of times I broke down. All the mornings I woke up missing you terribly that it literally ached. All the times where I muster the courage to hope you find someone else that would love you as much as I did ; someone that would calm the anger and hatred in you. Someone whose arms you’ll make your home in.

Then, I remember…I remember that morning I woke up where the pain no long stung anymore. I no longer miss you. I saw you on a Wednesday where you were out with someone new. I wasn’t bitter but instead, I smiled looking from afar knowing that the other person will love you. I lost you and it taught me what it was like to love.  I made peace with the pain. I forgave myself and I began loving myself more. I learned, even though it was a hellish struggle. I loved and I learned. Now, the thought of you no longer lingers in my mind. I no longer need you. I hoisted myself back up and stood on my own two shaky legs. I now no longer have the fear for love. I found myself. It took time and it really felt forever but I made it. I actually made it. out alive and this time, I’ve become a better me. Thank you for showing me that I am able to love myself without you.

So goodbye. Goodbye to all you.

– Here’s  to loving again.”

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White Chocolate & Strawberry Cheesecake

If there’s one fact that you have to know about me is :

I make pretty amazing cheesecakes.

It doesn’t matter if it’s a bake or non-bake cheesecake. Bottom line is that cheesecakes (any flavour) is my forte when it comes to making cakes. Plus, cheesecakes to me are the easiest cake to make in the kitchen.

I’ve tweaked this recipe a little because I don’t usually use gelatin nor do I make a top jello-like layer for my cheesecakes. I’ve also substituted the sugar here to sweeten condensed milk. I was trying something out. If you ever do give this recipe a try, do tag me in your posts or send me comments or you could email me about how it turned out. Let’s begin with this recipe, shall we?



500 grams of cream cheese, softened
1/2 cup of sour cream
1 cup of whipping cream (or heavy cream)
15 graham crackers/Oreos (or digestives biscuits), about 200 grams
5 table spoons of melted butter
1/2 cup of melted white chocolate
1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
1/3 cup of cod water
20 grams of unflavored gelatin

Top Layer

3 tablespoons of unflavoured gelatin
1/2 cup of cold water
250 grams of melted strawberry chocolate compound
300 grams of white granulated sugar
3/4 cup of water



  1. In a 9-inch springform pan, line it with parchment paper. Pulse the graham crackers in a food processor until fine crumbs. Combine the melted butter into crumbs until they’re fully coated. Transfer the crumb mixture into the springform pan and press it down using the back of a soup spoon or your hands to form an even and firm crust.
  2. Whisk the whipping cream until stiff peaks form. (I use a small blender to do this.)
  3. In large bowl, place the softened cream cheese and whisk it until it’s fluffy and light. Add in the sour cream, sweetened condensed milk, melted white chocolate, and vanilla extract. Whisk until the mixture is well combined.
  4. Fold in the whipped cream. Make sure to keep the whipped cream light and airy in your mixture.
  5. In a small bowl, stir the unflavored gelatin with water. Heat the mixture in the microwave for 1 minute or until the gelatin is completely dissolved. Let the mixture cool down before pouring it into the cheesecake mixture.
  6. Fold the mixture together with the gelatin. Pour the cheesecake mixture into the springform pan and even out the top with a flat spatula. Let the cheesecake set overnight or for at least 4 hours in the fridge.
  7. To make the top : In a bowl, mix the gelatin and cold water until the gelatin is completely dissolved. Allow the mixture to bloom.
  8. In a small saucepan, add in the 3/4 cup of water, sugar over medium heat and stir to combine. Allow the mixture to simmer for 3-4 minutes and then, add in the melted strawberry chocolate compound and the gelatin mixture. Let it simmer for another minute or two.
  9. Let the mixture rest and cool down for about 10 minutes. Pour the slightly cooled down mixture onto the prepared cheesecake and place it back into the fridge for it to set.
  10. Serve when ready to enjoy!🙂

PS : I created the top by accident. The strawberry mixture swirled with a little of the cake hence making it look like it’s marble like. If you want it to have marble mirror glaze, you can check out my mirror marble glaze recipe.

Marble Mirror Glaze Recipe

When a friend commented on my Facebook post of this cake asking for the recipe, I didn’t know how to reply because I just trying out something new for a birthday party.  I read this recipe on how to do a marble mirror glaze earlier this month and I thought to myself, “Hey, why don’t I try this…my version?” I drove to a baking ingredient supplier store and picked up the simple ingredients. Honestly, I didn’t want it to be this bright of turquoise but due to excitement, I accidentally poured more food colouring than I thought I would.



30 grams of unflavoured gelatin
1/2 cup of cold water
2/3 cup of sweetened condensed milk
200 g of melted white chocolate
1 teaspoon of white food colouring (powder or liquid)
3/4 cup of water
300 grams of white granulated sugar
300 grams of glucose syrup (you could use light corn syrup)
Concentrated food colouring (any colour you prefer)


  1. In a small heat-proof bowl, mix the unflavoured gelatin with the cold water. Stir until all the gelatin is dissolve. Once dissolve, set aside and allow it to bloom.
  2. In a large bowl, combine the sweetened condensed milk, melted white chocolate and the teaspoon of white food colouring and set aside.
  3. In a small saucepan, add in the 3/4 cup of water, glucose syrup and sugar over medium heat and stir to combine. Allow the mixture to simmer for 3-4 minutes and then, add in the gelatin mixture.
  4. Cook the mixture for another minute or two until the gelatin is completely dissolved in the mixture. Turn off the stove and pour the mixture into the white chocolate and sweetened condensed milk mixture.
  5. Allow the mixture to rest for a few minutes. Then, using a food processor (or a blender/stick blender) blend the mixture until smooth. Cover the mixture with cling wrap that is touching the top of the mixture to  prevent a film from forming.
  6. Place the mixture into fridge and allow it cool to about 23°C. Stir the mixture often to prevent clumps from forming. (If there are clumps, blend it again). Once it is cooled, the mixture will be thick and smooth.
  7. After the mixture has thicken, add your desired food colouring and stir.Swirl the colouring around the white mixture that forms a marble-like design. Pour the mixture on to your prepared cake and allow the glaze to sit until it has firmed up. (I did a double coat for this cheesecake of mine).
  8. Allow the glaze to set by transferring your cake into the fridge. Keep the glazed cake in the fridge until ready to be served.

Tip into making this glaze : If you might want to insert a toothpick into your bottle of food colouring and mix it into the mixture so the colour of the glaze won’t be really dark/bright and the white colouring will appear more.

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The Tincture of Ameliorating.

This message was sent by another university classmate of mine last Tuesday. We’re just acquaintances so you could imagine how touched I was when I read this message she sent me through Instagram. Our conversation then proceeded to where I found out that her heart is currently in pain. Within the next few seconds, I said a silent prayer with a hope that at least she’ll fell less hurt.  Sofia, I’m glad my words cheered you up🙂

They say pain changes you but they never say how it changes you. When I fell apart, my legs gave way as I collapsed on the floor breaking down. One time, I cried so hard that all my mother could do was just rub my back as she held me with all the might while I stained her shirt with my tears. You know what’s the most terrifying thing ever? Being scared of yourself. To me, there’s nothing scarier than to be afraid of yourself when you look at your own reflection asking yourself what happened to you. To hit that far below rock bottom was beyond hell. My heart ran out of love and my soul was torn apart in ways I didn’t know how to mend it back. The hurt my heart was going through was so painful that I could physically feel the pain.

I loaded my car and I went for a solo getaway. On that Saturday morning of the getaway, I sat on a long board (the one for surfing, not for skateboarding) and I watched the sunrise as I was floating in sea with my legs knee-deep in the cold sea water. I closed my eyes and I started telling myself quietly :

‘You will learn to love again. You are capable of love.’

It was then I realized that it will actually be alright. Yes, not now but in time, it will. Truthfully, I wish I had a manual that would tell me how to mend a broken soul because it’ll be so much easier. The only thing I know is that there’s a certain type of beauty in our souls and within our hearts. With given time, whatever that once caused the pain will no longer hurt. All you just have to do are 3 things :

  1. Don’t rush things. Let the heart and soul do heal by their own.
  2. Don’t suppress the feeling because numbing the pain will only make it worse afterwards.
  3. Believe in yourself.

I began trusting myself a little bit more after everything. As I laid on that long board and floating at sea, I placed my hands on my chest and felt my heart beating. The beating that told me I would make it out alive through this pain. I’m not going to lie and hide the fact that there are days where I lose my composure and cry. But you know what’s the most courageous thing? It’s when on those dark days, you still accept yourself for who you are. People look at me and they wonder how do I do it. Well, love is the key. I still continued to give love. I became more kind and gentle especially with myself.

Cry, if you must ; and smile when you’re happy. You’re entitled to feel whatever you feel and no one should ever make you feel that whatever you’re feeling is wrong.  3.5 years of teaching kids how to swim have taught me the essence of forgiveness and the joy of being kind. We grew up in a society where people think love is cruel but hey, that heart that you walk around with? It not only pumps life to your entire body but it feeds your soul with love. It heals your physical and emotional wounds. It’s not evil and it’s definitely not cruel. Sure, your previous relationship didn’t work out but that doesn’t mean you’re incapable of loving again.

You got to do you. You want to hike up the Himalayas? Do it. You want to just stay in bed and read for the entire day? Do it. Do things that you love and bring bliss to your heart and soul. Yes you’re scarred but I truly believe that everything you go through in life is stitched together with really good intentions. Let yourself heal and then when you’re ready, you’ll love again. Above all else, believe in yourself. You really have to. Do it for you. Trust that heart of yours for eventually it will mend and your soul will be okay again. 




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15 Minutes Sesame Chicken Lunch Box

I woke up late today hence the whole 15 minutes cooking. Thankfully I had some left over rice from last night so I didn’t have to cook noodles or something for the carbohydrates part of my lunch box. I didn’t spend much time cooking and mum didn’t want me to cook the night before as it’s not as fresh. I generally don’t mind waking up early to prepare my lunches now since I wake up early to go for runs.


TRICK TO COOKING WHAT YOU SEE IN MY PICTURE IN 15 MINUTES : Use two stoves. One stove to boil your vegetables in salted water while you cook your meat.


200 grams of chicken breast (cut into cubes)
1/2 tablespoon of cayenne powder
4 tablespoons of light soy sauce
1 teaspoon of sesame oil
1 clove of garlic (chopped or minced)
2 table spoons of honey (you could use agave nectar or brown sugar)
1/2 teaspoon of corn starch

Olive oil
Toasted sesame seeds

  1. In a bowl, whisk in the cayenne powder, light soy sauce, honey, sesame oil and corn starch.
  2. To work on the marinade for the chicken, in a non-stick pan on medium heat, cook the garlic in olive oil.
  3. Place your chicken in and cook it for about 5 minutes. (This depends on how thick you’ve cubed your chicken meat).
  4. Pour in your sauce mixture and let the meat simmer in it for another 5 – 7 minutes until everything is evenly coated.
  5. Add your toasted sesame seeds and let the dish sit for about 1 minute.
  6. Turn off heat and serve with whatever vegetables or carbs you desire.

PS : It’s best served with rice in my opinion😉

All is done! It is that simple! If you were rushing, like me who woke up late, I just cooked this. You could garnish it with chopped spring onions and if you like, you can add in half of a yellow onion too!




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Honey Soy Norwegian Salmon

After what seemed to be months…(okay, it was weeks) my little lunch box series is back! I woke up half an hour earlier today to pan-fry the salmon. It was easy as my mom had already make macaroni for breakfast so that was my source of carbs in my lunch box. All I had to do was prep the vegetables and cook the salmon.


Trick to cooking what you see in my picture in under 30 minutes : Use two stoves. One stove to boil your vegetables & carbs in salted water while you cook your fillet.


190 grams of Norwegian salmon fillet
1 tablespoon of honey (you can use agave nectar)
5 tablespoons of light soy sauce
2 cloves of garlic (minced or chopped)
A dash of cayenne powder

Olive oil
Toasted sesame seeds (optional)

  1. To work on the marinade for the salmon, in a ziplock bag or a container, mix the light soy sauce, honey, minced garlic and cayenne powder until the honey is dissolved. Add the chicken in and let it rest in the fridge for at least 30 minutes. Don’t leave it in the fridge for more than an hour as this will then burn the outside when you pan-fry it.
  2. Heat up your pan and put olive oil. Gently place your salmon fillet into the pan on low heat and let it cook. Glaze each side of the salmon with the marinade as you cook it (About 7 minutes per side of the meat depending how thick the fish is).
  3. In the another saucepan, cook your desired vegetables in the lightly salted boiling water. (I used edamame and sweet corn)
  4. Once your fillet is done, sprinkle toasted sesame seeds on the top of your fillet.
  5. In your lunchbox, rest your salmon fillet. Serve it with whatever form of carbs you want. (Quinoa, bread, pita, tortilla etc.) and with whatever vegetables you wish.

PS : It was fast and so simple that if you were rushing, you could marinade your salmon and place it in the fridge while you get dressed and ready for work! (Because that’s what I did :D)

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